I’m so glad to be back. Honestly, I just needed to take time for myself and my family and gather my senses. Things got off to a rough start this year. They were things that everyone has to go through, but it’s still tough. I’ve never gotten too personal on this blog, but I’ve decided to share some things and get real. Everyone goes through stuff, and it’s healthy to talk about it. This is me, and what I’ve been through makes me who I am. The same goes for everyone.
First of all, I found out toward the end of last year that my grandma had a terminal lung disease. She was actually my step-grandma, because my step-dad raised me, but I have very fond memories of her in my childhood and she was actually the only grandma I ever knew. I was very upset to hear the news, and I was really upset for my dad because he was extremely close with her. I promised I would be there for him, and I also went to visit her. She passed away in May. She was an incredible woman and lived a very full and happy life. Still, it’s never easy. During the funeral I saw some family members on my step-dad’s side that I hadn’t seen in years. It was so nice to reconnect and meet everybody’s kids, etc. I spent some time with my uncles and cousins, so there were lots of laughs and tears. I didn’t get to know my biological father, so I never met his side of the family. My step-dad’s family was the only family I knew. My mom had no siblings, and her parents passed before I was born, so it always meant so much to me to be accepted into my dad’s family at a very young age.
So about a month after my grandma passed, my dad was still trying to handle things, and his brother (my uncle) had a heart attack and passed away suddenly. My heart was broken for my dad. I had lost my mom and sister a couple years apart a few years ago, so it was bringing back those feelings of loss again. I started having anxiety issues for the first time in years, and it was getting more and more difficult to be in public. On top of everything else, I’ve been watching my daughter struggle with addiction for the past 10 or so years. (That’s a whole different subject) It got so bad, she had to serve time in prison for a year, and Kelly and I have been raising her son for the past 4 years. She has been doing much better, but I’ve learned that it’s an ongoing process. Anyone with this experience knows what I’m talking about. It doesn’t just go away, and the family seems to suffer the most. So one day (in February), it all came to a head and I had to go to the emergency room. I was diagnosed with hypertension and tachycardia. I was aware that my blood pressure had been too high, and I’ve always had a super fast heart rate. I’ve also suffered from panic attacks ever since I can remember, so the doctor prescribed a beta-blocker to address both issues. I hated the idea of being on medication, but I gradually got used to the idea. After that, I decided to get an overall wellness check, mammogram, all the stuff you’re supposed to do that I hadn’t done in years. It had gotten to the point to where I was scared to death that something major was wrong with me. My biological father had cancer and passed away at my age (I’m 44), and I lost my sister when she was a little older than me, so I felt that it was time for me to address things regarding my health. Thankfully, everything is fine, and now I can move on and live life, and be here for my family.
When I started this blog 6 years ago, I had a good idea of how I wanted it to be and why I wanted to do it. I wanted to have a place to promote my shop and share creative posts, but I never felt comfortable with getting personal. I guess I was afraid of being judged for things from personal decisions to using bad grammar. (Yeah, that actually happened). I was actually going through something very personal at the time that I started the blog, but I was trying to stay lighthearted and upbeat. I guess it was my way of dealing with my feelings. I felt that it was a sign of weakness to express grief and sadness. The reality was, I had just lost my sister and I was completely devastated beyond belief. But somehow I got through it, and then I lost my mom, dealt with (dealing with) my daughter’s addiction/recovery, and raising my grandson. I’ve learned that it’s perfectly healthy to talk about what’s happening. What’s not healthy is to act like nothing is wrong, and to not tell people close to you what’s going on in your head. EVERYBODY goes through difficult times, and it’s so important to have a support system, even if it’s just one or two people. I always felt like I was leaving something out or not being honest while I was posting how “great things are”. I was just trying to stay positive and not dwell on the negative. There’s a difference in talking about it and simply expressing yourself, and dwelling on things. I think I was just being a little too hard on myself and having unrealistic expectations of how I should feel or handle things. Again, it’s ok to talk about it, and then to try to move on and heal on your own time.
So here I am, back here actually talking about things I never thought I would share with most people. It feels pretty good. I’ve missed posting, but I always felt that I could share a little more than I was sharing, while being productive with my thought process. It helps me get past the obstacle, while maybe reaching out to someone else. This blog isn’t just about “new shop items” or what my house looks like. I’d like to share more, and act like an actual human being who runs this blog, not a robot. I should do a post on what my grandson’s room looks like most of the time. Now, THAT would be honest! I’m not quite ready to share that just yet.. Anyway, I’m looking forward to getting back to posting about the usual stuff, and also adding some new things to the mix. Thank you for taking the time to visit this little space of mine.
2015 was a great year for us! Here’s to a happy and healthy 2016!
I’ve been REALLY busy lately adding new items to my shop! Be sure to check these out, and much more at Kibster Vintage.
I’ve been waiting to be able to post this for about 3 years. The time has finally come, and I’m beyond excited. It’s like a whole new world for us in our house. When we moved in almost four years ago, we knew that we would completely change the kitchen. We had to. See for yourself.
Our house was built in 1959, but it looks like they tried to do some “updating” sometime in the late 70s or early 80s. The stove was from the 80s, and the refrigerator was from the mid 90s. We immediately pushed the stove out to the trash, but we had to keep the refrigerator until, well, just about 2 weeks ago. So basically what we have here are some light wood grain laminate cabinets with butter yellow countertops AND backsplash. They actually continued the laminate up the wall..
Check out the lovely hardware. We decided quickly that we had to take action. We immediately started taking doors off.
Ok, so the doors came off, and the laminate peeled off easily. Here’s what we had to deal with on the inside; nightmarish yellow contact paper with what appeared to be molasses spilled on it. Yes, more yellow. This was extremely difficult to remove.
…And there’s more. I almost killed myself trying to take this stuff off.
Here are the upper cabinets once the contact paper was removed. Ok, we’re making progress now.
And then there was THIS! Yikes! It was bad. Sooo bad.
Ok, the contact paper is finally off here, and we were able to move on.
But first, a little overview of the chaos. So scary.
So here everything is cleaned and sanded. Time to remove the “backsplash”!
If I only knew what was lurking behind that yellow mess…
Don’t be jealous. Here we have some lovely petrified glue. Great. We also have screws sticking up from the countertop from where we removed the backsplash. Fun.
Absolutely gross. We had to sand and clean this immediately.
After we sanded the glue and prepared the backsplash, I painted the interiors with enamel paint. I wanted it to be super durable. It actually turned out great. Nice and clean.
Now we’re getting somewhere.
So back to THIS problem. We actually lived with these for about a year (or so). Then we stumbled upon some quartz, yes QUARTZ countertops for $100 on good ole Craigslist. Kelly had to pay to have it cut for our new sink, etc., but it was still a great deal, and they were exactly what we wanted. I was SO excited when it was time to get rid of these old countertops.
And the old sink/faucet are gone!!
Old countertops gone!
Kelly working his magic.
Here are the new countertops, but we had to continue to live, so here’s what our kitchen looked like for the last, ohhh, two years. Every time someone would come over, I would apologize for the kitchen situation and made sure to tell them that it wasn’t permanent.
So much stuff. Too much stuff. Finally, about a month ago, we were able to finish the kitchen. We hired a local cabinet maker and he resurfaced our existing cabinets and made new doors and drawers. But first, it was time for me to purge! Boy, did that feel great. I took everything out of the cabinets and deep cleaned the interiors. I got rid of so much stuff…
Now it’s time for a new makeover.
But first, we changed our view with a brand new window!
Whoa. Where am I? Here’s the new space after the cabinets were done. We chose a laminate due to durability and easy maintenance. The color we chose was Columbian Walnut. We also chose some nice modern stainless steel hardware. We were VERY happy with the results, but there’s more!
Now that the cabinets were done, it was time to install the backsplash and under cabinet lighting. Kelly was up for the challenge…
NOW we’re talkin’! What a transformation.
A new refrigerator! Now we’re living in the lap of luxury! Seriously, I’m so happy with this new situation.
There’s my beautiful new window and windowsill. We found that pendant lamp at a thrift store a couple years ago. This was the perfect spot for it.
So there you have it. Honestly, after living with no cabinet doors and no drawers for almost four years, we were glad to have ANYTHING. It’s funny how you take those small things of convenience for granted. Sometimes we just walk out to the kitchen, stand there, and stare. It’s completely life changing. We feel so fancy now.
Anyway, my apologies for the super long post. It’s probably the longest one EVER, but I needed to do it that way in order to show the entire process. It took a long time to finish this, but it was so worth the wait. We’re already planning another project, so I’ll be back to share that too. Have a great week, everyone!
We really had a great summer. Aside from working, we spent our days at the beach, pool, and had skate sessions at home. Cadell went on his first trip to NYC and Washington, D.C with his other grandma and got to meet his family on his dad’s side. While he was away for three weeks, Kelly and I spent a few days out of town and enjoyed every minute of it. My daughter is living with us now, so we were able to spend a lot of quality time together as a family. Here are some highlights from our summer…
So now we’re easing back into our school routine, and we’re looking forward to fall. Kelly and I are keeping busy with work and we’ve got some exciting home projects going on, which I’ll share later. I hope everyone is having a great week!
Fresh finds, Lucy approved!
Here are the latest additions to my shop. Be sure to check them out at Kibster Vintage.
School starts for Cadell and I on Monday, so I’m getting organized and mentally prepared for some big changes. I will continue to add items to my shop, so it will be business as usual there. I already have some new things lined up and waiting to be photographed and listed, so stay tuned! There’s also a “summer fun” post coming up, which is a roundup of our summer. Have a great weekend, everyone!
Kelly and I haven’t taken a vacation in about six years, but every so often, we’re able to go for a weekend getaway. We usually venture south along our east coast to a beach that’s more quiet. We were able to go for a long weekend about two weeks ago, and it was SO NICE! We thrifted for two days, went out to dinner, relaxed for a full day, and spent some time on our room balcony looking out to the ocean. It just never gets old.
Upon arrival, we walked around the hotel and took some photos…
View from the hot tub.
Grabbing a little lunch and drinks by the pool.
The rare selfie..
Enjoying some cocktails on the balcony.
Sunset view on the west side of the building.
Our final morning at the hotel.. We’ll be back!
Just a little post of some things around the house… This has been a great summer so far, and we’ve all been really busy. We’re super excited about some upcoming home improvements too, so I’ll be sure to share those as they happen.
I will definitely be going back to school at the end of August, too. Things will be a little more hectic, but I’m ready to move forward.
Kelly and I also went on a little weekend getaway last week, so I’ll be sharing those photos soon. I hope everyone has a great weekend!
Business has come to a screeching halt, so I’ve gone through my personal collection to try to drum up business. I’m also trying to simplify a bit and do some cleaning to make room for more. I may be going back to school in the fall, so I’ll be busier, but looking forward to some positive changes.